In the words of Matt Patrick...

"I have more desires than I have energy for. I am talented yet remain doubtful of my own abilities."

Whoa! Mr. Matt Patrick nailed my mood. NAILED it.

Tonsils, Jello, and a Mississippi Barge

I get my tonsils out in 8 days. And boy am I looking forward to it! I'm always getting sick because they are determined to kill me every chance they get. A few weeks ago I received the lovely gift of getting tonsillitis twice in two weeks. Boo. But the thing is I'm not looking forward to it because I get to lay around for a week and a half and eat jello and ice cream. The idea of not getting to work out and eating only store bought ice cream (which I hate!) for that long is a devastating concept to me. What I'm actually looking forward to is being in so much pain and so out of my mind delerious and distracted that I won't give a lick about anything else.

You see, it doesn't take much to get me stressed. I wear my heart on my sleeve and experience my emotions to their very extremes at times. My new job, new album, and new adorably wonderful love interest have all got me riding a bit of a wave at the moment. I find solace in 3 mile walks, really good country music, and laying in the grass- completely drenched in sunshine- staring out at the river as the barges go by. But as of late, I feel a little trap in the uncertainty of it all. And the aches and fears only get stronger and louder when the walk ends at my front door, the song is over, and it's time to head home...

Soon enough I'll have my answers to what each piece's future holds. And by then I'll have new ones needing new answers and I'll be back where I started after all...